bout me and my friends...
hi all,
"REAL FRIENDS ARE THOSE WHO EXPECT A LOT FROM EACH OTHER BUT NEVER ASK"
"A REAL FRIEND ACCEPTS U FOR WHAT U ARE"
last weekend i had a very nice time spending with my freinds.it was a pleasant anf energising feeling by spending time with people who really u care and get cared in return.since we had 3 days hols for ayudha pooja i went to my house.the next day i went to salem to attend my freinds marriage.some of my friends came there too.we went to a movie "7g rainbow colony" and spent all our time together, talking,joking and discussing all other stuff.around 7 guys came there.they include kicha,police,neo,senthil,singer,ramesh and 2 of our juniors.i went to salem only by 8:30 pm and reached the mandapam straightly.all my gang wrere there.oh boy.they came hit me all over ,hugged me,shook hands and all other stuff.we then stayed in the mandapam for about an hour and went to a movie.after that we went to our hotels.we never slept.we were talking most of the time.we actually slept only for 3 hours.rest of the time talking talking we were simply talking.am really happy to have such good freinds.
am not good in having good freinds.i dont have any sort of contact with any of my friends with whome i studied for about 12 years.i simply ignored them.i dunno why.seriuosly when i joined my college in psgtech i found a new gang and in some way or the other i never thought that my pals during my school days are important to me.i neglected them simply.i dunno why.if i think of the reason behind that then only one thing comes to my mind.that i can never discuss here.na way.i lost or neglected all my friends only becos of that sole reason.sometimes i sit alone and think "what have i done?".i know definitely that its too bad and not at all forgivable but am so sorry.cant help it.
even while studying in college and having a new gang by school time buddies would be coming now and then to my house asking me as why i am doing like this.what happened to me? they were too much concerned and i never gave a shit about them.all my closest school time buddies know 100% as w hats the reason behind me in neglecting them.they know me for 12 years and they know what actually happend when i was doing my 11t hand 12th standards.u ceven a month ago i saw one of my school buddy.seems he is working in a call center.he asked me how i am and we were talking for some time.we xchanged numbers and i really promised him that i will be in touch.i knew that i will never.one bad thing that i had and due to whcih i suffered dearly was that i was too mucg possessive in my school days.al my freinds know that.now i have changed it but the damage that my possessiveness caused is still irrecoverable.now i can only sit and type all this but can never damage them.
during college days most of my school mates tried to keep in touch me.but 0% cooperation was my anwser.during my 2nd year allmost all of my school buddies left me.i think they simply thought "this ass hole will never change".i only know how much i regreted till this second in loosing my freinds.ok am feeling to this xtent.then why cant i keep in touch with my school buddies.no i cant.far too much has happened.and i cant.simply i cant.am so sorry.
then i thought that ok let me change myself in college otherwise i would be a ship with no meaning and destination.i changed myself a lot and i become that sort of guy what others will find like "hay he is too cool,understandable,he is trustworthynot selfish".i got and hve a lot of friends in my college life.i would be allways telling to me " asshole dont let these freinds go away from u.dont repeat ur mistake".i was alltogether a different guy in college.till this second i am a guy who is "a sort of cool,adorable,one can easily move with,who can help u if he can etc...".
during the group fight (i mentioned about this in one of my earlier blogs) i had a fear that i will be loosing all my friends once again.this very thgought frightened me.but thank god most people thought in the same way as i did.they sincerely and seriously accepted with my view.i have made a lot of scrifices for my frineds i think its now their time to show their affection towards me.thank u guys.am really proud that i have freinds like u fellows.i am expecting a lot from my freinds but i have never asked them.even like this my freinds would have d e finitely wanna ask a lot but they dont.as the quoting i have given in the starting of my blog freinds are like that.
til this second am close and in touch with all my gang.u know we had a ncie time last weekend and once again there is another gettogether in chennai on coming 30 th.guys working in blore are coming here to attend my freinds marriage reception.we are once again gonna have a galla time.we are making plans as how to spend our time.may some movie or beach.otherwise we would be talking all the time non stop discussing all type of issues till they leave.in chennai there are 10 guys.we giys for 5 days go to the company and in the weekend we guys meet and we have a ncie time.even if some guys cant come they just keep in touch.we gang are enjoying like anything.
i think freindship is a emotional issue.its is something that is related with ur inner feelings.one has to experience it to know it for themselves.i really wonder how i changed so much in my college days.thank god at least during my college days i changed and u let me have good and nice freinds.i will thank u again and again for this.i will never repeat my mistake that i did while i studying in the school.i till this second regert for lossing those school time buddies.but it will never happen again in my life never again will that happen.
am so proud and happy that i have such great friends who really care about me.am so lucky.
c ya later...